How I miss Jess, it’s just so dam hard every day, I know it will never get better, you just have to pretend that it’s all ok. I suppose that’s what we all do in life, you just never know what problems people have, and it’s the only way to get through life. Nay’s just had her 18th on the 1st of May, we went out for a curry and then the day after to a Chinese. Jess loved Chinese, her favourite was crispy duck with pancakes and plum sauce. Whenever we went out for a Chinese or had a takeaway, she would always eat the lot, well me and Jess used to share it between us, not leaving any for the others. It’s nearly 2 years since Jess left us, she would have gone into hospital today, I just wish that things had been so different, but for some reason, important I hope, God needed her. I can imagine Jess, looking well, her hair long and curly back to its beautiful red colour and in the latest fashions. I can see her sometimes, maybe it is not my imagination it could really be her. I miss my baby so much, one day we will be back together, each day apart is a day closer to seeing each other.