IT HAS NOW BEEN JUST OVER 8 WEEKS SINCE JESS HAS BEEN MISSING. PEOPLE TEND TO THINK THAT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF AS I HELPED JESS DURING THE PAST FEW WEEKS OF HER LIFE, BUT SHE WAS STILL INDEPENDENT AS SHE COULD BE, DOING AS MUCH AS SHE COULD AND GETTING OUT AND ABOUT. JESS WAS NOT THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO SAT IN FEELING SORRY FOR HERSELF, SHE ALWAYS WENT OUT EVEN IF SHE FELT LIKE CRAP. I MISS THIS PERSON WHO WAS SO BRAVE AND NEVER LET THE CANCER DRAG HER DOWN, I AM SO PROUD TO HAVE BEEN JESSICA'S MOM AND TO HAVE BEEN IN HER LIFE FOR THE 17 YEARS THAT I HAD HER. 17 YEARS WOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN ENOUGH TIME TO HAVE HAD SUCH A WONDERFUL PERSON SUCH AS JESS, BUT AT LEAST I HAVE ALL MY MEMORIES THAT ALWAYS MAKE ME SMILE AND SOMETIMES CRY BECAUSE IT MAKES ME REALISE HOW MUCH I LOVE AND MISS JESS.