Another month has past, it was 42 weeks yesterday since Jess has been missing, i sometimes just don't know how i have got to today none of this seems real, but i know it is. It is different for people who are not family they forget, which is normal they all have their own lives. But i am sure of it was their child they would feel the terrible loss that i feel 24/7, i would not wish this on anyone. I am trying to do positive things, because of Jess and for Naomi, me and Na are both running in thee race for life, of course we are doing it in memory of Jess. I also started my reflexology course yesterday, me and Jess were both going to be therapists, Jess wanted to open a spa, she said she would give discounts and some free treatments to those with cancer. I know that she will be working with me, i just know that Jess goes on she didn't die, some may think im crazy but i know, Jess would be mad with me for not having faith. The memorial stone is still not sorted, trading standards are dealing with it, they agree that i have a case. So i hope that can be put right soon. It plays on my mind.