Easter is now here, again i think about last year. Jess never did eat her egg that i got for her, i know that she was finding it so hard to eat. If only they had tube fed her, maybe things would have turned out different? I did ask Jess about a tube, she had said yes and was going to have it the week she went. Everthing was just too late for Jess. I went out on Friday with Na and my friends children for her bday, we had a really nice time, but went i got home i just felt awful, Jess should have been with us, not gone, i just kept thinking why is life so unfair? What did i ever do wrong for all thhis to happen? People just have no idea how you feel, they can't unless they have been through it as well. Anyway i have still got Jess a present, i have got some cream eggs and some lovely red and pink roses. Im in the hope that Jess will turn up to eat her eggs, she loved them. It makes me feel a bit better to buy things still for Jess, i fimly believe that Jess is around me, so i know she would be pissed off if i didnt buy her stuff! I think that Peter is coming for dinner today, im making fish pie, Jess loved it all the others liked it too apart from Dan.