We are now at the end of the summer, its been so sad without Jess around, i still miss her even more, anyone who says it gets better has no idea what they are talking about, i think you just learn to control your emotions better. But you never get over it it would be strange if you did wouldn't it? How can you get over losing your baby? Me and Naomi are talking a lot more about stuff, including Jess which is good, me and Na are the ones that are effected the most by losing her, we both lve her so much. We also feel her around us, there is no way that Jess is no more, she just went to another place, don't care what other people think. Five years ago, we didn't even know that she had cancer, if only we had found it then, she could be still here now. Life can be so very cruel i often wonder if i have done smething so wrong, for this to have happened to my wonderful Jesss. Some people don't give a shit about their kids, put a bloke first i never did.