IT IS NEARLY THE END OF JULY, 11 WEEKS SINCE JESS WAS TAKEN. I JUST FEEL SO EMPTY. JESS WAS SUCH A VIBRANT PERSON, THIS HAS LEFT SUCH A MASSIVE GAP IN MINE AND HER SISTER NAOMI'S LIFE. MY SIDE OF THE FAMILY HAVE ALWAYS BEEN VERY CLOSE TO JESS, THEY ARE ALL FINDING THIS SO HARD. WE HAVE ALL BEEN THERE FOR JESS, EACH OF US WOULD HAVE DONE ANYTHING TO GET JESS WELL, EVEN SWAP PLACES WITH HER. I HAVE SO MANY HAPPY MEMORIES OF JESS, THESE SOMETIMES ARE THE ONE'S THAT MAKE ME CRY, BECAUSE I REALISE THE LOSS IN MY LIFE AND THERE WILL NOT BE ANYMORE. I SAW ONE OF JESSICA'S MATES YESTERDAY WHILE I WAS DRIVING THIS MADE ME FEEL SO SAD, WHY HAS MY JESS BEEN TAKEN? SHE SHOULD BE OUT ENJOYING HERSELF AND MAKING A FUTURE AND CAREER. I AM TOLD THAT I AM COPING, SOMETIMES YOU DO NOT KNOW HOW YOU GET THROUGH EACH DAY, BUT I HAVE TO. I WILL CONTINUE TO DO THINGS FOR JESS AS MY LOVE FOR HER WILL NEVER DIE AND I BELIEVE THAT IT IS ONLY HER BODY THAT HAS GONE NOT HER SPIRIT. WHEN YOU HAVE A CHILD YOU DO ANYTHING FOR THEM THIS DOES NOT END, WHEREVER THEY ARE.