WE ARE NOW IN MID AUGUST, THE TIME HAS JUST GONE SO QUICKLY. MYSELF AND NAOMI WILL ALWAYS FEEL THAT THERE IS A BIG GAP IN OUR LIVES WITHOUT JESS HERE. I DO FEEL LIKE JESS IS WITH US HERE IN THE HOUSE, BUT I LONG TO TALK TO HER AND KNOW THAT WILL NOT BE POSSIBLE. EVEN THOUGH I KNOW JESS IS WITH US IT IS NOT THE SAME AS HER LIVING IN THIS WORLD WITH US. I HAVE BEEN THINKING A LOT ABOUT WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS FOR ME, I HAVE DECIDED THAT BECAUSE OF JESS, SHE IS MY INSPIRATION, HER COURAGE, STRENGTH AND BRAVERY THROUGHOUT HER ILLNESS IS AN EXAMPLE THAT I SHOULD FOLLOW. I AM SO PROUD OF JESS I HOPE THAT ONE DAY SHE WILL BE AS PROUD OF ME. MYSELF, FAMILY AND FRIENDS, ARE SETTING UP A CHARITY THAT WILL BE IN JESSICA'S NAME TO FUND VARIOUS RESEARCH PROJECTS THAT WILL HELP PEOPLE WITH RARE CANCERS LIKE JESS HAD. THE FIRST PROJECT THAT WE HOPE TO FUND IS A DENDRITIC CELL VACCINE TRIAL, JESS WAS DUE TO START THIS VERY TREATMENT THE SAME WEEK THAT SHE PASSED AWAY. THE CLINICAL TRIAL WILL TAKE RARE TUMOUR TYPES AND ALSO BRAIN TUMOURS. SO IF THERE DID HAPPEN TO BE ANOTHER "JESS" WITH FIBROLAMELLAR LIVER CANCER THEN THEY WOULD BE INCLUDED IN THE TRIAL, AND WHO KNOWS MAYBE THERE WILL BE SOME HOPE FOR OTHERS THAT THIS TREATMENT MAY PROVIDE A CURE OR MORE TIME FOR PEOPLE WITH THEIR LOVED ONES. TIME IS A VERY IMPORTANT THING, SPEND AS MUCH TIME WITH YOUR LOVED ONES, WHETHER THEY HAVE CANCER OR NOT, YOU CAN NEVER GET TIME BACK. ALTHOUGH I HAVE MANY MOSTLY VERY HAPPY MEMORIES OF JESS, THE TIME SHE HAD WITH US WAS NOT ENOUGH. I THINK ABOUT HER 95% OF THE TIME AND WILL FOR THE REST OF MY TIME IN THIS WORLD. I STILL WILL ALSO CARRY ON LOVING JESS AND DOING WHAT I THINK IS RIGHT BY HER AND MAKING SURE THAT I PROTECT HER AS I DID WHEN SHE WAS HERE, NO-ONE WILL EVER DIS-RESPECT JESS WHILE I AND HER SISTER NAOMI LIVE.