WE HAVE JUST GOT INTO SEPTEMBER, I WENT BACK TO WORK YESTERDAY, HAD A BAD DAY 2 PEOPLE AT WORK HAVE MADE IT VERY UNCOMFORTABLE FOR ME FOR THE WHOLE OF JESSICA'S ILLNESS, I THOUGHT THAT THEY MAY HAVE DECIDED TO HAVE SOME COMPASION BUT THEY HAVE NOT CHANGED. I HAVE TO BE BRAVE LIKE JESS AND NOT LET ANYONE BULLY ME ANYMORE. IT HAS BEEN HARD WALKING INTO WORK, PEOPLE DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT TO SAY AND WHEN ANYONE HAS SAID HOW SORRY THEY ARE I HAVE STARTED TO CRY OR ONLY JUST MANAGED TO FIGHT BACK THE TEARS, IT IS ALL SO RAW STILL. i DON'T KNOW HOW I WILL MANAGE WITH TEACHING MOST OF THE STUDENT'S ARE THE SAME AGE AS JESS AND SOME WILL KNOW HER, REALLY THINK WHEN I AM MORE SETTLED IT WILL BE TIME FOR A CAREER CHANGE. MY BIRTHDAY WILL BE ON THE 17TH, JESS ALWAYS MADE SUCH A FUSS, SHE WILL BE ON MY MIND. I WILL HAVE A QUIET BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR JUST ME AND NAOMI WILL DO SOMETHING TOGETHER.