Jessica's bday has now passed, we have all been doing a lot of thinking and there has been a lot of sadness that there are no new memories for us to have of Jess. I am sure that Jess was pleased that we celebrated her bday, we had a nice meal and ordered crispy duck for Jess, we also took a pink rose with us for Jess, that is for love, to show her that we all will go on loving her, just cause we can't see her does not mean that she is not here. After the meal, me and Na came home and Jessica's boyfriend Peter let some balloons off and lit some candels on Jessica's pond and we all wished her a happy birthday. Jessica's memorial stone will be ready in about 4 weeks, it has taken a while but it has been made specially, it is a panda, i know that Jess will like it, a lot of thought has gone into it, i wanted Jess to have the best, even if it has been a struggle to pay for, she is worth it. I constantly think about Jess and smile and sometimes cry even at the happy memories, just would love to have a chat with her.