I just can't believe that we are now in November, Jess has been missing for 25 weeks. Each day does not get any easier, people think that you will get over it all in time, but how an you ever? Those who say this really do not have any idea of the loss that we have been through. If they lost their child i am sure they would feel the same way. Jess is still on my mind 24/7, when i wake up, she is there. Life is so very empty without her, i know that Naomi feels the same, there is nothing that anyone an say that will make us feel better. Jessica's memorial stone is now paid for and will be ready in a few weeks i hope, it takes a long time for them to be made. It has been a struggle to pay for but Jess is worth it, only the best for my Jess! Anyone who new Jess well, new that she always liked expensive stuff that not many other people had, no-one will have a stone quite the same as Jess's. I have also had a tattoo done on my back as a tribute to Jess. It is angel wings and the word Je$$ica, Jess always used the dollar signs when writing her name. I will always have an angel watching my back, Jess will always be with me. Naomi also wants a tattoo done, again to remember her sister, i am not sure of what she wants it like yet. She will have to get it drawn and see what she thinks, you need to make sure that you like before they do it as it's for life. I am not looking forward to Christmas, none of the family is, i know that it will be a hard time, every day is, but Christmas is a time for family. I have many happy memories of Jess, we were very close, i am the luky one to have spent so much time with Jess, there are others who let Jess down all through her life, they have to live with that now, i always did my best for Jess and even though things are different now i will still continue to protect her. Others have totally disrespected Jess in life and also since she has passed, Naomi has also had the same done to her. I just hope they both know that they have a Mom that loves them both with all of her heart andd i will always do my best for them not matter where they are.