IT'S BEEEN A FEW WEEKS SINCE I HAVE DONE ANY UPDATES, BEEN QUITE BUSY AT WORK. ITS BEEN A HARD FEW WEEKS THE HORROR OF WHAT HAPPENED HITS HARD MOST OF THE TIME. ICAN'T HELP THINKING WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN AND HOW LIFE IS VERY UNFAIR. FOR JESS MEDICAL ADVANCES HAVE NOT YET GOT THERE FOR HER TYPE OF DISEASE. IN FACT THERE IS NO REAL RESEARCH DONE AS THEY SAY IT IS SO RARE. THIS IS JUST AWFUL FOR ALL OF THOSE WHO ARE SUFFERING LIKE JESS WITH VERY LITTLE CHOICE OF TREATMENT. THIS IS WHY WE ARE SETTING UP THE CHARITY IN JESSICA'S NAME, BUT THIS ALL TAKES TIME. A FRIEND OF MINE IS DOING SOME FUNDRAISING NEXT WEEK FOR THE CHARITY. EVERY PENNY MAKES A DIFFERENCE. JUST WISH JESS HAD THE CHANCE TO HAVE TRIED THE DENDRITIC TREATMENT, WHO KNOWS WHAT THE RESULTS WOULD HAVE BEEN, GOOD I HOPE, WELLL FOR OTHERS NOW. I KNOW THAT JESS WOULD WANT THAT. I AM DREADING CHRISTMAS, ALREADY FEEELING UPSET, THERE WILL BE A BIG EMPTY SPACE ON XMAS DAY, THIS WILL NEVER BE FILLED BY ANYONE. I STILL AND WILL ALWAYS LOVE JESS AND CARRY ON DOING THINGS FOR HER AND OTHERS IN HER MEMORY.