I woke up this morning looked at your photo Jess, and started to cry, remembering how much pain you went through this time last year. You was so brave, never giving in and no the cancer did not beat you, it was all the drugs. I know that you would want me to carry on for Naomi, but it is very hard at times, when you feel like your heart is broken in 2 and i know deep down i will never be truly happy, how can i when your missing? I know your around, but i just want to see you. Please watch over me and Na, we love and miss you so much, i hope that your happy and in a much better place. I know i had to let you go Jess, but its the hardest thing ever, but i could not keep you here that would be selfish. Each day that passes is a day closer to seeing you, i know that you will be there to hold me hand as im not as brave as you Jess. I love you so much, that will never change. Mommmy xxxxxxxxx