Another month passes again, i try not to think about the time we have been apart, but each day is a day closer to being together again. Jess is always on my mind, that will never change, but it would be very strange if it was any different. This is something that i have to just live with, no one can make it better, it would be crazy to think that you just get better from this. I know Jess would want me to try and make the most of it here, i have been thinking about taking Naomi on holiday, i think Spain. Jess came with us last to my Dads place in Spain, the summer before she was ill. We had a really great ttime, im sure that she will be with us if we go. If i don't do anything i could regret it, after all i could be dead by next year! And i would be thinking that i wish i had done more with Na, i also think that Jess would be angry with me. She always made the most out of life, im glad she did. Wherever she is now im sure that she would not be moping about, she will be up to loads.